As I knew all along, the beta was negative. I finally heard from nurse T today around 3PM. To add insult to injury she manged to call me Deborah at one point and she has been my nurse for both of our IVF cycles. I never did hear from Dr. K. by email or phone. I realize he is just back from vacation and probably trying to get caught up, but I'm not sure he can fix it at this point. At least having somewhere to put some of my anger helps.
I have no idea where we go from here. We need money, a new clinic, a good egg or 2, and some hope. I don't really know where to find any of them right now.
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38 comments:
I am so sorry...
I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you a hug in person. ((hugs)) PM me if you need to "talk" or email me: gahmsw@comcast.net.
I'm sorry...
Blasted clinics. I'm so sorry, Brenda! We're here for you, sulking with you, and hoping that tomorrow brings less pain for us all. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better, but I know you'll find your way. I'm here for you, honey. Allow your hubby to take good care of you for a while. You deserve to be pampered!
Brenda- I'm so very sorry. I wish things were different.
Bethany
(wishing hoping praying)
I am very very sorry. Big hugs to you. I am very unhappy with your clinic for how this all went down. Its extra salt in an already very painful wound, and completely unnecessary.
If you are serious about finding a new RE, I can give you Dr. Bad Ass's info (Dr. Danzer). He is not too far from you. http://www.scrcivf.com/
Big hugs, and please know you are in my thoughts.
I am so so so so sorry....Hold close to your DH today and for the days to come.
I've just sent you an email, but it was before this post. Read it when you feel up to it, ok.
I am here and I have tears in my eyes. And I'll be here, till you find your resolution.
((((((hugs))))))
I'm so sorry B...it definitely sounds like a new clinic is in order. I wish I had extra $ and magical eggs to send to you!
((Hugs))
I am so sorry this cycle turned out the way it did. I hope you find peace soon.
I am so sorry, B. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sorry darlin'. :(
That totally sucks sweetie!! I have felt like that with my clinic to, and it hurts to think that you are just a lousy number!!
Hugs,
Rebel
I am so sorry to hear about this. And I'm still angry with your clinic for being such assholes.
My heart goes out to you and your husband right now. If you need to talk , you can PM me
Much hugs and love
I'm so sorry hon - I wish that you didn't have to go through this. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))
What an unbelieveably shitastic experience! So sorry, B. And so glad for you that it's finally over. New clinic. Definitely.
Big hugs to you.
I'm so sorry it didn't work out, and even more so for how it all played out...I'm sure you are in a lot of pain now, but at least it is clear cut over, and the clinic isn't making you hang on any longer. I wish I could make the pain go away and replace it with success.
I'm so sorry. I will be thinking about you as you work through the various questions and decide your next steps. We're all here for you!!
Hi, I'm so sorry about your journey, but please don't give up. I just had our 5th try of IVF and now I'm 12 weeks pregnant. We have spend over 60,000 dolars so far but it was worth it. It sounds like you need a new clinic and a doctor and staff that cares. I have been through 3 different doctors. Don't give hope it will happen for you too. Best of luck in the future. Martina
So sorry you are going through this. It's so frustrating dealing with such horrible patient care on top of what you're already having to deal with. I don't have any advice to give other than to lean on your hubby, feel what you have to feel and then make a plan.
Oh B... I don't kow how we all continue, but somehow we do.
I'm not sure where the money comes from. And I hate that, for many of us, the opportunity to become parents is purely a financial one. I hate that. Not sure why senators everywhere can't propose mandates to require IF coverage in all states.
I also agree with others that a new clinic should definitely be on the horizon. And Massachusetts has many of the very finest clinics in the world. I was at my clinic yesterday, we my husband and I were shocked to see a car from Montana in the parking lot. The nurses always tell me about the women who come to my clinic from all over the country. Please know that if you ever want to pursue treatment here in Boston, we've got a decent sized house with a few empty bedrooms. There is a bed here with your's and M's name on it... anytime, as long as needed.
Someday, my friend, we will find peace.
Love, E
I'm so sorry Brenda, I wish there was something more I could do.
Wishing you some peace & many ((hugs)).
So sorry girl... (((HUGS))) i wish the result was different.. :( hopeing that whatever your next step is will lead u to your family... more (((HUGS)))
I am so sorry, sweetie. You have every right to be angry right now.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry about the BFN and the crappy clinic etc. Both suck big time. Hugs to you.
Crap, I'm so sorry. I don't know what the situation is in your area but if you are able, I think you should seriously consider using another clinic if you decide to do another cycle. Their behavior is completely inexcusable. If they treat all of their patients that way, they aren't going to be in business for very long.
Please don't give up hope. I know this will work for you. Take some time for yourself and when you're ready, we're here to cheer you on!
So so so super duper sorry Brenda. Thinking of you and feeling your pain as i have been there one too many times. Its not easy AT ALL, I know, but try to focus on yourself, treat yourself good, spend time with your husband, do something fun and try to think positive thoughts for next cycle as hard as it may seem right now. Sending you loads of hugs and thinking of you girl. xoxoxoxox
Just de-lurking a bit, just to say I'm sorry. And if you're looking for a new clinic, I've got a recommendation.
We've been TTC for over 5 years. In that time, we did 4 IUIs, 2 IVFs, and 1 FET at Northern California Fertility in Roseville, CA. No success.
During our struggle with this clinic, my chiropractor told me that 3 of his patients also went to Northern California Fertility and were not successful as well. Then they went to Zouves Fertility Center in Daly City, CA. 2 of them got pregnant and delivered healthy babies. And the third said they would cycle again with them again.
So we went to Dr. Zouves after the last failed FET - and from our first IVF cycle with him, I'm currently 34 weeks pregnant with our first! In addition, my chiropractor and his wife just completed their first IVF with Dr. Zouves, and she's 19 weeks pregnant.
The website is www.goivf.com.
Dr. Zouves is absolutely awesome. He's a very caring, wonderful human being who really cares about his patients. He's the only doctor there, so you really get 1 on 1 care from him.
That sucks. I'm so sorry.
That sucks the biggest fatty ever.
I'm so, so sorry.
I know this feeling all too well. I am sorry your cycle didn't pan out. I have two bfns and I am going to CCRM next. I got 5 second opinions after my second bfn. i went with my gut
Here from L&F.
I am so sorry for your loss. This is just so sad.
I also have IC and so I know that hell, too. Keeping you in my prayers.
I am so, so sorry.
Keeping you in my prayers...
Am so very sorry to read about this, dear. How awful!
I am so sorry! Big, big ((((hugs)))) to you.
I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts.
I am so sorry to here the news. I will be praying of you!! I am sending lots of (((HUGS))) your way!!
My heart goes out to you.
I came over from Just me to send you some love.
I'm so sorry to hear this news. I hope you do find hope. It's such a hard thing to cling to...
*BIG HUG*
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