Two steps forward, one step back, and stim drama

I'm still trying to get my shit together for this cycle so please bear with my random thoughts. I had 2 doctor appointments yesterday and we started stims. Here is the recap.

Appt. #1: Friday morning started with bloodwork and ultrasound with Dr. K. It was a good appointment with a thin lining, all follicles less than 6mm, and estradiol nice and low at 22.7 (meaning the Lupron has done it's job and my ovaries are resting). We were given the okay to start stims!! Step one forward.

Now I have to brag M. up for a little bit. (I'll knock him back down later with his injection skills, but we'll get to that.) At our IVF#1 follow up, Dr. K. mentioned looking for a discount for us on IVF#2. When we paid last week, there was no discount. I would have let it go, but M. asked Dr. K. about it yesterday. He apologized for not putting it in our chart and gave us a 10% discount across the board (including the IVF, ICSI, and AH). This puts $895 back in our pockets. Yeee Haw! Step two forward.

Appt. #2: I met with my therapist after work and the happy front I tried sporting with the bright spots on Thursday went all to shit. I'm hurt and pissed and am not coping very well right now and am taking things out on myself more than I even recognized. This really could be a post all it's own so I'll let it go for now. She gave me some nutritional ground rules that I promised to follow and an assignment for a list of things that make me happy. I will be meeting with her twice next week. Step one back.

Starting stims: Let's just say we are a bit out of practice. When we did our first inject/IUI cycle, I started mixing the Menopur and M. stood there like a lost puppy not sure what to do. As hard as it was for me and my control freakish ways, I handed over the needle and he has done every injection since then. (He thinks he is a pro because he used syringes once to epoxy some tiny optics at work - out of the mouths of men).

So we have done alot of injections since then, but for whatever reason could not get it together last night. I had issues priming the gonal-f pen and M. tried to load the Menopur syringe using the injection needle. After finally getting it all straighted out and we were ready to go, M dropped the needle which barely missed my foot and stuck into a throw rug. We did get the injection done, but not without some minor swearing and hysterics. The Lupron injection was a double jabber as the needle didn't fully go in on his first attempt. He nearly lost his injection job last night and I think at one point he may have even said he quit. I'm bravely giving him another chance and hoping for much less drama tonight. You would think we should have this down by now.

I had my first Lupron side effect last night with lots of night sweats. So not fun. Tuesday should be another repeat with RE in the morning and therapist in the afternoon. Good times. Good times.